Saturday, May 28, 2005
went to the recreational club at changi airport this m0rning. i was late yet the earliest. peilin was exactly 1hr late. p0wer la haha. receptionist was in a foul mo0d. so we'd to pay. dots.
played badmint0n and table-tennis. i suck gr0ssly at table-tennis. prefer n0t having the table. hah. it'll be much m0re fun. but then again, it wouldnt be called table-tennis right. haa... rubbish. the restr0om at the recreational club is damn classic! haa. n-i-c-e and clean. n0t like mj's sports c0mplex t0ilet. a stupid c0ckroach came crawling in while we were bathing the other day. gr0ss.
wanted to get new running shoes. cuz the soles of my current one are giving way. wasted a few tubes of super glue already. haa. nike shoes arent durable. nice but they dont last. but anyway, there was n0 size avaliable f0r one which caught my eye. plus s0me c0mmented that i d0nt suit "plump" sh0es. haa. tr0ubles0me!
grumps. my st0mach's bloated. awful. must have been the r0tiboy. argh.
t0 gabe: you havent lost anything. but she has lost some0ne wh0 truly cares. anyway glad y0u're able t0 c0nquer the misery she has inflicted. (: and to hansel, hopefully he knows what he's doing. cherish what y0u've bef0re its gone. all i ask for is a carefree life.
yes i may f0rgive but i can never f0rget.the cruel decisions made.the f0rsakens.the m0ments of neglect.anxiety and alienati0n felt.its n0t that i've n0t forgiven y0u but rather, i've learnt t0 stand on my own to defend myself.i've n0 hope in bec0ming the victim. yet again.ap0logies mean n0thing to me n0w.why is it that pe0ple never learn to cherish what they've until they've lost it?th0ugh i've lost it, i'm not feeling remorseful.simply because, i onced cherish.but i was f0rsaken.i was the redundant soul.n0 one will be able to hurt you if y0u've a pr0tective shield.a brave front is essential.but when can i ever discard it...the opp0site of l0ve isnt hate.its fear.so fearful that we let g0 of l0ve...
take me with you
3:14 PM
